A very early birthday gift for you, daddy.

There’s nothing more that I hate, than someone who tries to destroy my father. Sounds like it’s from an anime/drama show but whatever. Sonny, destroying and/or killing him won’t actually defy your existence in life. I guess you’ll only realize it a few seconds before dying, that all you ever did was take to take advantage of my-ever-so-kind father. So in layman’s terms, you’re an evil gold digger. If you try digging deeper for the answers why, your actions would actually give you the perfect answers. The answers are all laid out for you.

You’re probably laughing because I’m so miserable and I’m just adopted and that I should ‘shut up’ because I’m just adopted but FUCK. I’m tired of shutting my fucking mouth! Everyone probably thinks that I don’t even love my father at all but I DO. By trying to make my voice heard by all people is the only way I can show to prove my love for him. I thought being silent would make him appreciate & feel how much I love him but I guess he doesn’t appreciate it at all.

It’s killing my father. I can see him, slowly dying. Not physically, but you’re trying to destroy his soul. His love was all I wanted but you want to take all of it. You try to change him as if he’s not even human at all. You try to make him say the harshest words to me like, “wala kang pakinabang sakin!”  OR MAYBE, “madamot ka sa pagmamahal!”  , “MAKASARILI KA!”  , “WALA KANG INISIP KUNDI SARILI MO!” , “WALA MAN LANG AKONG MAKUHANG APPRECIATION MULA SAYO!” ,  ”TANGA TANGA MO!” . 

Some of you might think I’m overreacting about this but for seven years (ever since I was nine years old), he’s been saying that to me. It kills me, honestly. All I ever wanted was to have someone who can help me forget my misery (not being with my real parents & not knowing where they are or not even getting their names). By the way, it’s been seven years since he met Sonny. 

See, this is probably one of the things that I’ve been ranting about ever since… ever since he met the guy.